Yesterday...i went to my regular pregnancy check up at one of local clinic here...Mcm biasa kene tunggu lama...sbb dah ader beberapa org que masa tu..Finally my turn..ambil timbang berat badan..I put on weight lagi..dah 69.5 kg..Finally when time to check on my belly..the nurse said.."kak kenapa saya x boleh rasa kat mana baby akak" ..she called her senior to check..same answer..I dah mula rasa x sedap hati...The nurse appoint me to see doc at nearby klinik ibu2 mengndung. Di sana..jumpa doc and terus buat scan..doc also terkejut..dia x boleh nampak baby on the screen..katanya perut mcm kosong..x der baby..terkejut bila doc cakap mcm tu..but the doc calm me down, she appoint me to GH. I went there to have another scan for details...I met a very nice doc..A chinese guy..during the scan..cakap pun lembut..and explain to me nicely..there dia nampak my baby...but x jumpa cari denyut jantung dia..i just tarik nafas yg panjang...Ya Allah...dugaan aper ni...the doc asked me if i got bleeding before or cramp..mmg x der rasa apa2..then he said to give 2 weeks chance to the baby..in two weeks time I'll see him again for another scan..if the condition is still the same...He might declare me miscarriage...and..sepanjang 2 minggu ni..if i bleed or cramp, i have to go straight to GH..I might lost the baby at any time from Yesterday...and dari semalam juga i perasan..I can't feel the baby move anymore... but i still wishing for a miracle..just like the doc said..we give the baby change..since sampai hari ni i x rasa aper2 sakit or tanda2 nak keguguran..
Balik dari hospital..i told my husband..and dia pun redha kalau aper2 berlaku...nak buat mcmana
kalau dah bukan rezeki kita katanya...And I pray to Allah...kalau ni rezeki yg Allah mmg nak bagi..semoga dia lahir dgn sempurna..and if mmg bukan rezeki..Allah ambil lah dia dgn cara yg terbaik..
